i gave the first actual voice lesson of my life tonight, and teaching is hard.
the girl i’m teaching is very cool, very perceptive and self-possessed and gentle. she’s doing some very cool things with her life, which just underscores my general i love oakland!!!!!! the people you meet here and the projects they work on, it’s just unbelievable. the whole east bay. (i say oakland because in many ways i think that’s the pulse of the east bay, but everywhere this side of the bay intermingles a lot.)
i didn’t realize how much i had to teach until we started working, actually, and then i realized how much i took for granted that i have to hand down. i’m absolutely not an expert, but it really made me think, all those hours spent learning in someone else’s studio were so valuable, actually, because it gave me a pattern for how to show someone new the ropes. if you are going to learn any art or any craft, 85% of it, i think, is your being attune to sensations and patterns in the world around you, just listening, no matter whether someone is teaching you, but sometimes that extra 15% or so of outside input and outside momentum really matters - even if they’re not experts, yet, either.
it’s hard!!! but i’m also so glad, now, that i’ve arranged my room so that the feeling of “studio” is central. it’s a very, very good workspace, and i’m very happy. before we started singing we also made a light dinner of pasta and ate it out on my balcony and talked and i thought, “i’m so glad i have such a wonderful apartment and such a wonderful balcony to share.” like, this is why i have this apartment right now. also, i’m a huge believer in the process of having dinner with people and sharing meals and so forth. i think it’s really important to break bread with people, as it were. sharing food with people is important, generally.
so. i have some ideas now about how to proceed with her, what kinds of music to work on, what she really needs to put work into to become a more developed singer and musician and artist. which is super exciting!!!!! i think she will have a LOVELY voice as she develops and i’m very excited to hear it come out clearly and naturally and comfortably, eventually!! wow!! i’m so excited actually!!! i think i should probably do more of this!!! i don’t really know how to find more students and i also think there’s no rush (i have like 10 other pet projects i’m working on in addition to a full-time job and a freelance gig and oh also lol i signed up for a marathon in december??? lol i hope i don’t fuck myself up training for it oh dear. ps sometimes i cook and sometimes i even do my laundry and SOMETIMES i shower)